Annie’s Journey
Photo courtesy of Laura Wong
This weekend was the Pan American Championships in Montreal, Canada. This tournament marked the end of the 2012 Olympic Qualifications. I went into the tournament prepared to give everything I had and to go out fighting. Qualifying wasn’t completely out of my reach, (difficult, but not impossible). I, however, fell short. I placed 5th for the second year in a row (losing in the semi-finals and then again in for the bronze medal).
I would be lying if I said I wasn’t extremely disappointed, frustrated and in a state of disbelief.
For the past 4 years I’ve dedicated my entire life to Judo. I went to weight training 4 days a week (45-minutes away from my house), was on the mat 4-6 times a week (2 hour sessions), and practically lived at 24 Hour running. My entire day revolved around my training schedule. (Wake up, go to the gym, go home and eat breakfast, lifting practice, go home and eat lunch, take a nap, judo practice, go home and eat dinner, sleep. Repeat the next day). Now that this run is officially over, reality is starting to sink in; I have to grow up and start being a contributing adult to society.
Throughout my 4 year journey, I had a lot of highs and lows emotionally, mentally and physically. There were times where I wanted to pack my bags up and give up. I lost focus on what was important; my goal, my dream. Thanks to my entire support system, I was always guided back in the right direction. I put my heart and soul into my judo because I was given great advice a couple years ago. “Even though it feels like there’s a lot of time left until qualifications, it’s going to come a lot faster than you think. And at the end, you don’t want to have any regrets. You will never live it down if you regret not putting in the time and effort.” (Thank you, Sayaka) Now that the time has come, I don’t have any regrets that were in my control. The only thing I wish I could change, was that I started competing and training internationally a lot sooner. I wish I had the time to develop without the time constraint. But, I’ve come a long way.
I want to thank everyone that’s supported me one way or another. Family, coaches, friends, sponsors, EVERYONE. I am forever in your debt for putting up with all my crap throughout the years. Your help, guidance and support has meant the world to me. I just hope that I’ve done enough to make you proud of my accomplishments (even though I fell short). I worked my tail off not only for myself, but for each and every one of you.
Now the big questions… is my Judo Journey over?
Annie- you are a hero in our book. Anyone that goes for their dreams like you have are inspirational. We are sorry for your loss, but appreciate the fact you were willing to take us on your journey with you. You are an incredible person and will no doubt have many blessings in your life.
Annie: I think the most important thing is that you have no regrets – you gave it everything you have and that’s very honorable!
I so eagerly awaited news of how the tournament went, and I’m so very sorry for your disappointment. The hours of work and travel that went into this effort are really unimaginable. It’s been such an honor to witness the process, so thank you for including us along the way! We obviously continue to support you, whatever you choose to focus your energy on next. (And with your focus and drive, watch out!)
I’m also willing to bet that your Judo journey is not over…its shape might be different, but Judo would be lucky to keep you. Hope to see you soon!
Annie, even though it’s not the outcome you had hoped for, your story is very inspiring. Thank you for sharing it!
Annie: You’re awesome. I am proud and honored to know you. This is just a part of your journey.
Annie, everyone here is so proud of you!! Thank you for sharing your journey with us all.
Annie,
Despite placing 5th and reaching short of you dreams, you still came back a champion. We are all so proud of your drive, dedication and your courage to go for your dream with all your heart. I dare say your journey is not over yet, those that dream big will find yet another dream to accomplish. Lot’s of love and support coming your way!
Annie – Your journey over the last 4 years really has been inspirational!
Annie,
Your dedication and focus these last 4 years will shape the rest of your life. You came so close and you left it all out there, you can’t ask any more of yourself. You will be amazed as you go through life and realize all of the ways judo has made you the person you are and the way it affects the decisions you make. Hold your head high, you’ve got such a bright future!
You’re such an inspiration, and no, your judo journey is not over! you could teach, open a judo training place, help people train in the fitness world, help people how to eat healthy like an athlete, etc. etc. The list goes on and on. It’s just the beginning for you. Enjoy your youth and make the most of it! ;D